I spent much of my childhood in this house, which belonged to my Grandparents. This to me is more than a Hip Hop video, it is more than art. It is a personal look and what grief looks like, what an empty house looks like, what love looks like for a Grandmother who does not know you anymore, or that her husband has gone, or that he was ever there.
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I see a thousand ghosts leaning on the lamp posts,
Of old streets we danced on, making all our grand boasts
I come back now and then to stand close
Watching the wind where all our plans blow,
My gran grows quieter
Wonder if she knows how we cared for her nightly
My grandfather was her guardian, his heart was mighty
Carry her upstairs, though his back was hardly sprightly
Hold her tightly in his arms, while he questioned her politely
Like how’s my wife feeling?
He kept his mind willing, even though his body turned cold
It was spine chilling, the whole time he kept her alive
Giving everything he had, he was expected to die
he used to wear tight shirts to hide the tumours on his chest
crying out from the pain in his room when he undressed,
lying next door, I could hear him stifling the tears
but I couldn’t intervene, he’d wanted privacy for years
like the last song said, Goodbyes are heartbreaking
spiritual rituals so difficult to partake in
at least I got the chance, Bernard died in his chair
Sean died quick taking flight in the air
How do I write to you there?
Wish that you could hear this
Jumpers for Goalposts, a letter to my dearest
Capsule of my childhood, message to the fearless
watershed moment for the formerly tearless
Here this is 24 tracks for my time living
a day in the life of 24 year old giving
glimpses in the window of the building where we're sitting
listening to voices of our loved ones and reminiscing
when I was a kid I thought the stars would forever glisten
Now I give them your names and so they're never dimming
I made you all this album, and its the final song
after the goodbyes - and i'm gone
Soulful and funky, the Nottingham rapper's latest features guest appearances from CRIMEAPPLE, Vandal Savage and Yumah. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 2, 2024